Had my first filling restoration done this morning. I was unfortunately about 10 minutes late to the appointment due to my own stupidity and traffic. Bravo. The receptionist was not pleased because they did a lot of shuffling around of people to fit me in before I go away.
I feel terrible about it, but that is life and sometimes we are late.

I have another appointment on Monday, one of Tuesday and a polishing on...Wednesday, I think.

At this point it looks like I will be without the desktop computer for a few weeks as my dad has a lot of stuff on it that he needs to transfer to his laptop. I'm cool with that as long as I get it as some point sooner than later.
There are two different file managers in my CPanelx which I can use to keep my Quilting Bee quilt updated with trades, and if I have to make any emergency changes to any of the sites.

I'll copy all of my website files onto disks (or maybe memory stick if I can borrow that) and backup everything online as well. I should backup more often anyway...

The plan now is to finally upgrade my Enthusiast scripts. Wish me luck...

I finally got into gear and found a CSS image rollover tutorial, thanks to the help of some lovely bees! It seems to be working fine in Firefox and Internet Explorer, but if you notice anything funky going on with the navigation, please let me know (I will give you a cookie if you do).

I've removed an affiliate, Sarah, because her site isn't there anymore and I haven't heard from her at all in a very long time. It's always sad when you loose touch with people, but I still have her email, so maybe I'll email her sometime.

The whole affiliate thing is a weird business at times. I'm not a good affiliate, I fully admit that. I don't visit my affie's sites on a very regular basis. Maybe a few times a month and some more than others because I know they update more often. The only exception to the above are two of my affiliates that I have become good friends with over the last three years and year, plus we are connected in ways other than just our websites.
I rarely make gifts for my affies — mostly because I'm too lazy to, but also because I don't even really see the point in making them all the time. I know it's nice to get them and to give them, but if I have to make a new one every bloody month then forget it!

I'm also seriously considering dis-affiliating with a couple of people purely because I hardly ever go to their sites and their content and such doesn't appeal to me at all. Or they themselves don't. It's not that they're not lovely people, it's just that we're very, very different and I also like to read blogs and other content that is tasteful and nicely done. Not "I LyK DiS Gy N lYk i WnT Hm 2 cAl MeH" or misspelt words all the time, and definitely on purpose as opposed to a genuine mistake (which I make all the time... But you love me anyway, right?).

You know what I'm talking about. *facepalm*

It's not that people who write like that are bad or horrible people who aren't worth my time, it's just that I personally cannot sit through an entire entry written like that, or with content like that. It's just not something my mind is capable of doing, and I'm glad for it.

So, that's what is on my mind at the moment, in regards to the Internet.

Offline, however, is a little different. In a few weeks or so I am definitely moving to Auckland. I'm really pleased I have somewhat of a date to work towards; it makes things so much easier.
On the other hand I'm not exactly sure if I will be able to take the desktop computer with me, which essentially would leave me computerless and thus incapable of updating the site (aside from the blog). That would be a rather large, unfortunate pickle. I'm hoping like hell my dad says it's okay to take it because a very large, important part of my life exists on it (as sad as they may seem to people who are not addicted to webdesign — you are missing out).

Even if I get to take the computer I have no idea if it will be Internet enabled for some time. I will definitely have 'net access at various places, including where I will be living, but I'm not sure if my computer will be hooked up or not (it's complicated as to why it might not be).

Oh well, so long as I use the last few weeks here in Gisborne to make sure every minor detail about my sites are all good then I should be fine. Thank the Universal Powers That Be for Enthusiast, otherwise I would have to give up all my fan and namelists! Tragic if ever there was a tragedy!

I should really be sleeping right now, or at least attempting to, but I don't feel like it despite being quite tired.

Some personal stuff has been going on at the moment that is taking it's tole on me physically and mentally. But it could always be much, much worse and there is a silver lining. Somewhere.

I'm going to post my favourite poem by William Blake. It's called 'Auguries of Innocence'. Actually, if you've ever seen the first Tomb Raider movie, you may recognise the first part of the poem, as it features in the film:

To see a world in a grain of sand,
And a heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand,
And eternity in an hour.

Remember? It's the clue Lara's father hid in a book for her. It's my favourite part of the poem (not because of the Angelina connection, but because I think it's one of the most beautiful things ever written)!

The whole thing is below, under the cut, because it's looong.

Read full text of I'm too tired to think of a witty title......

Yesterday was very lazy. I didn't get anything that I had planned done because I was too blah! So I hired some DVDs instead (don't you just love it when your DVD store sends out coupons for discounts?).

Anyway, I got Trainspotting, which I'd never seen in it's entirety before, just snippets here and there. I enjoyed, and not just because Jonny Lee Miller is in it.
I also got The Dreamers, which is amazing and, if you haven't seen it, you must! It's a strange film in some parts, but beautiful and lovely all the way through.

I got three others: City of God, Blow and Coffee and Cigarettes. Haven't watched any of them yet, but I've seen Blow before (Johnny Depp is in it, so therefore it is mandatory).

Right, off to find fuel (i.e., edibles and drinkables), and then pretend to be a film snob for the afternoon.

I've installed BellaBiblio, but it's not public yet because I want to work on a style for it (and, erm, add books!).

I'm going to start actively seeking a job on the weekend. Door knocking around town to see what's available. I think there is a position at an electronics store, and one at a men's clothing shop.
I went to the library to ask one of the librarians about being a librarian. She was really nice and helpful, and gave me the name of a course available through the Open Polytechnic. She also said that they sometimes have Saturday positions that don't require qualifications, just not right now. They advertise them in the local newspaper though, and I will pester them every time I go in.

It's such a confidence thing with me and jobs. I'm a bit of a perfectionist and I hate making mistakes; I suffer for it because it makes me almost terrified to work anywhere, yet I know I appear to be confident, and often am alright in new situations.
I haven't really written in this blog, or the site at all, about the depression I've had for years now. It's so public and I'm not really comfortable letting just anyone know about it.
I was diagnosed "clinically depressed" by a psychiatrist at the beginning on 2025, and I also had Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I'm alright at the moment; it comes and goes. Sometimes I'm fine and confident, and feel like I can do all I set my heart on; other times I feel none of those things, and I get in a rut that is very hard to get myself out of.

So, that is a little more insight into me! Everybody has so many different layers and, especially on the Internet, you only ever get to see what they want you to.

Anyway, it is freezing and I have a headache (remind never to drink Coca Cola...).

I really should start reading more non-LiveJournal blogs. Almost all of my online friends have LiveJournals and not their own sites with a blog on it. I would like to actually start reading, and communicating, more with people outside of LJ.

I haven't done a whole lot with the site since Monday because I've been busy with fanlists and namelists. I have two to make and two to finish. I've got time though, it's not a rush; I just want to get them out of the way soon.

I have to change the site's navigation to CSS image rollovers instead of using DHTML, which is fine, it's just making the time to tackle the coding because I've never done it before.

Right, I shall go and play around with fanlists for awhile.

Ciao!

Tonight I finally managed to solve the date issue in my blog. If you remember, the date used to be shown above the post subject. If there was more than one post made on a day then it would display the date, then the most recent post of that day, followed by the other posts of that day.
I wanted the date to display on every post, under the subject (where the time and categories are listed).

Hooray!

I've just been fiddling around with the blog for the last hour and a half. Now I'm going to go and see about revalidating pages. Exciting...

Okay, everything is pretty much switched over now. I still have tonnes to do though, and revalidating everything is one of them.

Bare with me. I think everything is working, which is all the matters.

Well, it feels like a Lazy Sunday, even though I'm not really being lazy since I am doing websitely things. Mostly answering e-mails and the like.

I made a Lazy Sunday playlist, and you may view it here. Perfect for my kind of Sunday.

Yesterday was my third year anniversary of being a member of The Quilting Bee. I got the exciting news of all the site changes yesterday as well, so that was nice. All members have their own profiles at the site now, and there are lots of new little nifty things for us to squeal about!

On a more personal note, I am currently cutting my upper right wisdom tooth, and I think the upper left will follow. I can actually feel a point through on the right one. It hasn't really been painful, I've just felt quite a bit of uncomfortable pressure in the wisdom tooth areas, as well as all my top teeth.
I went to the dentist (a new one as my old one wasn't very good) on Friday to get everything checked. I have to have some panoramic x-rays done, as well as the regular x-rays from inside my mouth.
We'll see what happens.

I've been making Teddy Bears over the last month or so. I made one for one of my sisters and I've just sent one to an aunt, for her birthday. I've also made a little miniature bear; he's very cute!

Here's the one for my aunt (I nicknamed him 'Teddy Bobkins')

Okay, that's all for now. Off I go to be productive!

I have put the new layout for the site on hold for awhile and decided to focus more on my fanlist and namelist collectives. Aside from owning several more listings I want to upgrade Enthusiast 3 to Enthusiast 3.1, but I'm waiting on my hosting to get back to me with some info I need for the configuration.

When I do begin to focus on PrettyBloomers again I want to kind of overhaul the site a bit. I mean, what I would love to do is buy another domain name and begin to shift everything over to it, as I feel like Prettybloomers has kind of run it's course and I feel like having a fresh start. I can't afford to do that right now, so in the meantime I will just clean up the site considerably and get rid of a lot of stuff that I feel is not necessary anymore.

The Quilting Bee has a new activity so I'm going to go and get started on making stuff for that.